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A far more Glorious Feeling than for a God to feel Godlike

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I could write one hundred blog posts and give one hundred lectures. And I would not be able to sum up everything that this website is about better than Jack London does here as he prepares to set sail in his home-built boat, the Snark. Wonderful writing and wise words indeed. I urge you to spend five minutes reading this through twice. Thanks to Ben Saunders for showing it to me.

I took the wheel. The sailing-master watched me for a space. He was afraid of my youth, feared that I lacked the strength and the nerve. But when he saw me successfully wrestle the schooner through several bouts, he went below to breakfast. Fore and aft, all hands were below at breakfast. Had she broached to, not one of them would ever have reached the deck. For forty minutes I stood there alone at the wheel, in my grasp the wildly careering schooner and the lives of twenty-two men. At the end of the hour, sweating and played out, I was relieved. But I had done it! With my own hands I had done my trick at the wheel and guided a hundred tons of wood and iron through a few million tons of wind and waves.

My delight was in that I had done it -not in the fact that twenty-two men knew I had done it. Within the year over half of them were dead and gone, yet my pride in the thing performed was not diminished by half. This delight is peculiarly my own and does not depend upon witnesses. When I have done some such thing, I am exalted. I glow all over. I am aware of a pride in myself that is mine, and mine alone. It is success.

Life that lives is life successful, and success is the breath of its nostrils. The achievement of a difficult feat is successful adjustment to a sternly exacting environment. The more difficult the feat, the greater the satisfaction at its accomplishment. Thus it is with the man who leaps forward from the springboard, out over the swimming pool, and with a backward half-revolution of the body, enters the water head first. Once he leaves the springboard his environment becomes immediately savage, and savage the penalty it will exact should he fail and strike the water flat. Of course, the man does not have to run the risk of the penalty. He could remain on the bank in a sweet and placid environment of summer air, sunshine, and stability. Only he is not made that way. In that swift mid-air moment he lives as he could never live on the bank.

As for myself, I’md rather be that man than the fellows who sit on the bank and watch him. The trip around the world means big moments of living. Bear with me a moment and look at it. Here am I, a little animal called a man- a bit of vitalized matter, one hundred and sixty-five pounds of meat and blood, nerve, sinew, bones, and brain,-all of it soft and tender, susceptible to hurt, fallible, and frail. I strike a light back-handed blow on the nose of an obstreperous horse, and a bone in my hand is broken. I put my head under the water for five minutes, and I am drowned. I fall twenty feet through the air, and I am smashed. I am a creature of temperature. A few degrees one way, and my fingers and ears and toes blacken and drop off. A few degrees the other way, and my skin blisters and shrivels away from the raw, quivering flesh. A few additional degrees either way, and the life and the light in me go out. A drop of poison injected into my body from a snake, and I cease to move- for ever I cease to move. A splinter of lead from a rifle enters my head, and I am wrapped around in the eternal blackness.

Fallible and frail, a bit of pulsating, jelly-like life- it is all I am. About me are the great natural forces -colossal menaces, Titans of destruction, unsentimental monsters that have less concern for me than I have for the grain of sand I crush under my foot. They have no concern at all for me. They do not know me. They are unconscious, unmerciful, and unmoral. They are the cyclones and tornadoes, lightning flashes and cloud-bursts, tide-rips and tidal waves, undertows and waterspouts, great whirls and sucks and eddies, earthquakes and volcanoes, surfs that thunder on rock-ribbed coasts and seas that leap aboard the largest crafts that float, crushing humans to pulp or licking them off into the sea and to death- and these insensate monsters do not know that tiny sensitive creature, all nerves and weaknesses, whom men call Jack London, and who himself thinks he is all right and quite a superior being.

In the maze and chaos of the conflict of these vast and draughty Titans, it is for me to thread my precarious way. The bit of life that is I will exult over them. The bit of life that is I, in so far as it succeeds in baffling them or in bitting them to its service, will imagine that it is godlike. It is good to ride the tempest and feel godlike. I dare to assert that for a finite speck of pulsating jelly to feel godlike is a far more glorious feeling than for a god to feel godlike.

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  1. Hi Al

    Great quote. A lot to think about here.

    It made me think of a favorite story of mine. It’s from the surgeon Richard Seltzer’s book – Mortal Lessons Notes in the art of surgery:

    I stand by the bed where the young woman lies, her face postoperative, her mouth twisted in palsy, clownish. A tiny twig of the facial nerve, the one to the muscles of the mouth has been severed. She will be thus from now on. The surgeon had followed with religious fervor the curvature of the flesh; I promise you that. Nevertheless, to remove the tumor in her cheek I had to sever the nerve.

    Her young husband is in the room. He stands on the opposite side of the bed and together they seem to dwell in the evening lamplight, isolated from me, private. “Who are they”, I ask myself, “he and this wry mouth I have made, who gaze at and touch each other so generously, greedily?”

    The young woman speaks, ‚”Will my mouth always be like this?‚” she asks. “Yes‚” I say, ‚”it will. It is because the nerve was cut.” She nods and is silent.

    But the young man smiles. ‚”I like it‚” he says, ‚”It is kind of cute.‚” All at once I know who he is and I lower my gaze. One is not bold in an encounter with a god. And unmindful, he I see he bends to kiss her crooked mouth, and I so close, I can see how he twists his own lips to accommodate to hers, to show their kiss still works. And I remember that the gods appeared in ancient times as mortals, and let the wonder in


    This story really blows my mind and in light of your quote, firstly makes me wonder what being godlike really means? And secondly, re. London’s closing remark… what is more glorious, a finite speck of pulsating jelly to feel godlike, or a god to feel like a finite speck of pulsating jelly? Both are pretty amazing I guess.

    Rob

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  2. Martha Solomon Posted

    Both passages are profound. I suppose we can attempt mastery of the forces and furies of nature, but when we can’t, we can yet master tragedy by being bigger than it is.

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  3. Michael montagne Posted

    What book is the London passage from?

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