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The Tumult and the Shouting Dies. And then what?

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“How dull it is to pause, to make an end, to rust unburnished, not to shine in use!”

Gold! Up against the absolute agony of ultimate physical exertion collides the extraordinary rush of triumph, validation and relief. What a feeling! Winning an Olympic gold medal must be an extraordinary sensation. The victory, the applause, the podium, the anthem, the party, the adulation, the accolades, the breakfast cereal advert.

And then what?

What happens when the training and the planning and the race are over? What happens when you have achieved all you ever wanted to achieve in life?

This was the premise to a fascinating radio programme this week, featuring Olympian-turned-Adventurer James Cracknell. I found it compelling.

The question “now what?” is not only relevant to elite sportsmen and women. It strikes people who complete difficult expeditions too. It applies to anyone who has strived hard for something they want very badly.

I cycled round the world then quickly found myself thinking “What next?” There was precious little whooping and jubilation, certainly far less than something I worked so bloody hard towards for four years ought to have merited.

I rowed across the Atlantic Ocean, for the itch was not scratched. And during the row I felt convinced that THIS would be my last expedition, that blissful happiness and fireside reminiscences awaited. And about a week after returning home, I found myself excitedly talking about the South Pole once again.

I wrote my first book – something I had dreamed of for years. My publisher ripped open a box and there it was: hundreds and hundreds of copies of MY book. I had done it! I had written a book, published a book, and here it was in all its beauty! And the pride that I felt was so much smaller than the struggle had been.

This is the curse. The fruitless Sisyphean labour. The impossible quest for restless, ambitious souls to find happiness, satisfaction and a neat conclusion.

In the radio programme, Cracknell interviewed his wife, Bev. It was a fascinating interview and one I highly recommend for any of you who are selfishly obsessed with your dream, or in a relationship with somebody who is. There were piles of nuggets, but these three particularly resonated with me.

  • “There are loads of athletes whose great race was 8 or 12 years ago who never find out who they want to be next. When you finish competing you have nothing else.”
  • “What you [husband James] did so cleverly was to work out what you enjoyed from your sporting life and then applied those same passions to the ‘real world’.”
  • “You have to be very selfish to be a top athlete.”

The programme went on to have lots of other fascinating interviews, including long-jumper Greg Rutherford (“years from now I don’t want to be known as the guy who once did a big jump all that time ago”), the Brownlee brothers (talking about how Johnny’s initial delight at winning bronze quickly faded to disappointment) and a couple of people talking about the very real symptoms of depression many athletes face after their Olympic High.

If you are bored at work, frustrated by your complacency, yearning for adventure, or concocting a phenomenal journey, by all means go out there and make great stuff happen. But beware also that reaching the summit is very unlikely to leave you satiated for long.

What do you think? Am I being unnecessarily negative here? Focussing too much on the difficult come-down? Or is it an aspect of succeeding at big goals that is not addressed enough? Have your say in the comments section below…

You can listen to the whole radio programme here for one week.

 

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  1. Interesting stuff – will certainly listen to the programme; Cracknell’s a fantastic example of a sportsman playing to his strengths following his sporting carear.

    Surely if we all feared the negative consequences that ‘may’ come after the highs of completing an expedition/trip of a life time then we’d never push off and start them?

    I’d rather look back on an expedition with pride, and have a burning desire for more, than look back on a time when I would have gone on an expedition but feared the consequences and never went through with it.

    Imagine if Mallory had returned from Everest in 1921 and not made two more attempts, what if Scott and Shackleton had given up after their first attempts at the pole?

    It’s the need for that feeling of success, or the motivation of a previous failure, that will constantly push people on to more. I’d imagine very few could give up that feeling for good – look at Bonington and Fiennes still battling away in their 60s and 70s!

    Does anything really leave us completely satisfied permanently?

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  2. hi alastair, long time reader of this blog. love what you do. i guess i agree with tom “does anything make us 100% satisfied?” No, the things of this world- fame, adventure, money, sex, drugs, winning a race…, will never permanently fill that internal void. I think the only thing that could fill that void, the only thing that can put our minds and hearts at ease is God/faith. maybe that will offend people but i can’t seem to get away from it. i keep coming back to it. its the only answer that makes sense to me yet i don’t know why i constantly fight it.

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  3. Jamie Posted

    Faith means blindly believing in something without any evidence, reason and enlightment is what you need. Although whether you actually need any evidence that say, the Christian God actually committed the infant genocide in the bible in order to worship him for it is another point of course.

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  4. Not being a sportsman, nor an adventurer, never had much of a competitive streak, not sure I’m qualified here. But I do have an itch – to be on the sea. Not to go anywhere in particular, but to be out there, moving with the wind and the water.

    I sail and row whenever I can, I have made some longer cruises, and they certainly bring satisfaction, but for me it’s the satisfaction of BEING at sea, of sailing. Not the arriving, or the winning.

    If the winning is all, how can it be anything other than a disappointment after the initial high?

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  5. Alex Posted

    Does anything really leave us completely satisfied permanently? Satisfaction is an emotion and as such is transient. Similarly physical needs like hunger, thirst, elimination are never permanently satiated. The very nature of our existence is temporary so it would seem odd for anything to be permanent except that which we continue to create.

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  6. Couldn’t help but draw likeness to a recent video from Steve House. As I’m sure you know, he’s achieved what most climbers can only dream of and then some, and relative to most of us he is superhuman. So I find seeing him in this perspective humbling:

    http://vimeo.com/40379197

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  7. I still really need to listen to this programme but I was thinking about comparing the “now what?” question that elite sportsmen and women face after winning an Olympic gold medal to the post-adventure “what next?” dilemma that rapidly replaces the glow of achievement and I think there may be a glimmer of hope for the adventurer…

    The trouble with winning an Olympic gold medal is that for most sports this is the pinnacle of achievement. For an athlete to surpass this accomplishment in their chosen field they have limited options. They can try to win more golds in a single Games like Michael Phelps. Or go for a lifetime of achievement like Steve Redgrave. But, if success in their sport is how they have chosen to set their ambitions then they are not going to easily better their Olympic gold medal.

    The world has defined the Olympics as the peak that all athletes need to conquer to be recognised as the best at what they do. Whilst athletes can choose to define their own personal measures of success, they cannot remove the fact that if one of those measures is to be the best at what they do then winning an Olympic gold medal is likely to be their benchmark.

    Adventurers too can set their own personal measures of achievement but in contrast they do not face the same clear-cut external benchmarks of success as elite athletes. Mountaineers may seek to conquer new peaks. Climbers may look to achieve new speed records. Channel swimmers and ocean rowers may strive for the quickest crossings. And whilst these would all be huge achievements they would also be relatively isolated endeavours. For an adventurer being the best at what they do is harder to define and as a result they have the freedom to set themselves personal challenges without facing a strong external framework determining what ultimate success in their field looks like.

    When an adventurer completes a major expedition and the reality of returning home begins to sink in they can at least turn their attention to the next trip, facing it as a whole new challenge with a different set of success factors that are likely to be incomparable to the last achievement. For an Olympic gold medalist, for success in their next challenge to even come close to the feeling of winning gold they need to entirely reframe what personal achievement looks like for them.

    Or perhaps I’m just trying to make myself feel better for getting hooked on adventures rather than elite sport?!

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